As I Ponder’d in Silence...

Journey

2012-02-16T23:37:00.000-08:00

Roads are lovely, except for turns
Walk with me till the one comes
Few more steps with trust and doubt
No promises or bind on this route

Sprinkle some sunshine, add drops of rain
Spice it up with giggle, beautify the lane
This purple evening, sweet lilac smell
Enormous Reminiscence, we’ll forever dwell

And time will fly, memories will churn
New roads to walk, new bends to turn
Some day, some bend…we’ll meet again,
Search for sunshine and laugh once again.

# 4 and # 5

2012-01-31T21:48:00.000-08:00

A couple of paintings I made last year!

a little of you, a little of me!

2012-01-16T09:27:00.000-08:00

A little of you, a little of me
I smile and wonder how it could be,
I don’t recall since how long
You are with me so steady, so strong!

Your presence around is my happiness key
You extend the comfort beyond the sea
It is not all that I want to say,
One gaze of yours takes my breath away

It sounds like music, too good to be true
When you say I bring out the best in you
Having you by my side sets me free
O dear, your love is my poetry

I wish I can go on and on
Just like our story moves on
Forever and ever
How we are apart but still together!

No, we are not two.
You are me. I am you.
Yes I love you, more than I do.

[I know you’ll whisper, I’ll always love you.]

Pour it like they do!

2012-01-04T22:57:00.000-08:00

No attempt to write poetry. I know I have lost the grasp over it these days. But, it is one of those times when you just seek for wings of words to let your heart fly. When all you feel like doing is sharing it with someone. It may not be an innate thought. There lies a series of inspirations and circumstances. You just want to write as you see everything around is futile. And you pen it down abruptly. But at the end of it, it makes a difference. You get this inner satiated feeling that nothing else brings to. So yes, pour, be it a poem or a piece of contemplation. Just pour it like thousands of clouds above are meant to; Pour.

# 3

2011-12-18T22:06:00.000-08:00

Tried my hand on abstract painting. You are free to interpret the message inside ;)

Nostalgia

2011-04-13T00:03:00.000-07:00

The past untold, the time gone by
The long evening walks under the blue sky
The wisdom we shared; small things we cared,
Love fostered within and grew day by day

The excuses to meet, sms and calls
Laughter we had in the corner's coffee shop
Sudden outing plans at the last moment
Few were hit and few were flop

The trivial talks in just a random way
The toast we raised on a smallest joy
Remember those pranks we secretly played?
And the fights on 'who's gonna pay!'

That movie together we watched in the hall,
And the meal we cooked was not bad at all,
Bonfire. The melody. The company fine.
Together we danced on cloud number nine!

The road was twisted with many turns
But the journey didn't seem long!
Hearing the tune of unforgettable days
Today I'm composing a nostalgic song!

no tomorrow

2011-01-28T11:55:00.000-08:00

My bag is empty, my act is done
The lights are tired… music undone
I walk further, spotlight follows me,
And I wave at the faces I’ve never seen!

Suddenly spotlight dims just a little
I smile. It suits to show a fake riddle
I think it’s time to drop a curtain!
Later, dead applause will remain,
Tomorrow I'll have to come again.

If only for a night, I don’t have to be there
No tricks, ashes, words to borrow;
In the world outside this caged stage,
All I will have is... no tomorrow!

white silk curtain...

2010-11-30T09:02:00.000-08:00

Moonlight

Black night

And the white silk curtain between us

The translucence and those eyes

Mirror eyes

Restless silence

Absent presence

Just a careless instance

Endless night, passing yet still

And one impulsive wave with blossom

Taking everything in its embrace

Beyond the white silk curtain,

Those eyes, mirror eyes

Still unspoken

Love, still unyielding

between lines...

2010-09-01T10:24:00.000-07:00

Struggling...

between Faith and Deception

Deception

created by fear, somewhere inside

Faith

tied with a thin thread of Hope

Hope

...

that someday

this struggle will End!

Summer sky

2010-05-29T06:58:00.000-07:00

A sweep of gold --
A slash of crimson --
Few lilac patches in the summer evening sky
Sunbeam gaze --
Warm breeze --
Like an artist put his canvas to dry
Grey clouds clutter when sweltering winds blow
They steal these colors to paint the next rainbow!

What if...

2010-05-12T23:47:00.001-07:00

What if… I’d marry a girl I loved in my college days?
What if… I’d spent some more quality time with my family?
What if… I’d not followed the path that others chose for me?
What if… I’d not hurt my best friend on that small issue?
What if… I’d celebrated my success a little more instead of planning for the next milestone immediately?
What if… I’d died less and lived more everyday?

These are many such ‘what ifs’ in our lives, for which we don’t apply reasons or logic at the time they happen. We just put them in different envelopes of time and stamp them with fear, carelessness, competition, ego and anxiety. We post them to ourselves but after receiving, we keep them unopened till the time comes when it’s too late to apply reasons or logic on them. And we wake up one day repenting..!

Incomplete lines

2010-03-13T21:47:00.000-08:00

What happens to incomplete lines?

Do they dry up like a plucked flower in the sun
And lose the charm?

Or do they vanish in the air like camphor
And disappear?

May be they sink in the sea of time
And never come up

Or they are just wiped out by another wave
Like the words on the sand of a shore

Or do they explode inside heart?

I feel the sun

2010-02-26T05:35:00.000-08:00

There were some illusions I recall
May be, I didn’t know clouds at all!
Dazzling stars were playing seek and hide
But now I feel the sun from both the side

Many things I am grateful for
Once I start counting score,
A song of thanksgiving's just not enough
It deserves much much more stuff

And so the merry heartbeats sing
With the whole glad world around
Let's hear together
Voice of love in every sound!

A fresh start!

2010-02-10T10:50:00.000-08:00

Today I feel like nothing to say
Sitting near a window having a cup of coffee
Just want to let the sun rays gleam my face
Let the songbirds chuckle,
Let the blossom of flowers fill my heart
In the spring… want to have a fresh start!

Old memories, adieu!

# 2

2010-01-15T02:54:00.000-08:00

Just another one from my kitty! :)

Jig-saw

2010-01-14T06:47:00.000-08:00

Look, a child is striving here and there
To understand this new territory
Trying to interlock a jigsaw riddle
By putting pieces of life together!

He’s just nearly done
But searching for a portion
Slipped away out of focus

He will give up… go back 'n eagerly search again -
The bits and pieces of tomorrow
To make his puzzle complete!

# 1

2010-01-08T06:04:00.000-08:00

I took a brush and paint palette in my hand after so long! Just trying to make this dull phase of life a bit interesting by experimenting with colors!
Killing Time Creatively! :)

Pebbles and the pearl

2009-12-19T05:38:00.000-08:00

Saffron skyline was her aspiration to reach
She was walking alone, early morning on a beach
Beneath the thundering ocean wave
She found few pebbles on the shore pave

Like a child does, she made a sandcastle
And embellished it with her vivid pebble
Whispering the jingle of an old lovely carol,
Ocean zephyr was drying up her castle

Another roaring tide dragged away the fort
And her pebbles too went along to escort
Alas! She spilled her desires deep inside the ocean
But taking a back step, she found a shell open
Holding the saffron pearl in her palm, soon realized the girl
She was behind pebbles but was destined to the pearl!

The fool in me!

2009-11-24T05:13:00.000-08:00

I love the fool in me
The one who feels too much,
Thinks too much,
Talks too much,
Sees too many dreams,
Takes too many chances,
Wins sometimes and loses often,
Struggles with mood swings often,
Loves and hates,
Hurts and gets hurt,
Promises and breaks promises,
Sings and giggles,
Laughs... and cries...!

Just free

2009-10-01T20:10:00.000-07:00

I am free…
Free as a bird
Free from all prisons
Just as free as I was before

I don’t need to ask questions to myself
And no need to seek for answers inside
Smile has just patched up with me
‘n joy will friend me again, soon!

Solitude

2009-09-22T07:19:00.000-07:00

I've created a small world,
My own word where stays -
My dreams and hopes, deeper in my mind
My tunes and songs, sole of their kind
My thoughts and feelings, like an eternal stream
My moods and smiles, always make me gleam
The world where I can always be me
The world where I've discovered new me!

Paint my world!

2009-08-19T01:47:00.000-07:00

I took the brush in my hand to paint some colors of happiness
But the brush was already filled with the dark color of soreness

To spread it on the canvas, I took a little pink
But the picture was screwed by the past grey ink

I washed the brush with the water of last tears
N repainted the canvas with two white layers

Now the strokes of colors look so live and bright
They have hidden the shades of the darkest night

I’d make sure, palette of sorrow doesn’t touch my brush again
N I’ll fill my canvas with the shades of happiness again and again!

Droplets...

2009-07-09T06:08:00.000-07:00

Roar of thunders disturbed me last night
But today’s rays have made the morning bright

It seems like I missed the first rain
Few droplets I found on my windowpane

Grass is greener, brown soil has turned red
Air is damp and clouds are making shed

Cool wind is blowing softer than a sigh
When’ll you melt again...I’m looking at the sky!

In love..?

2009-07-01T01:05:00.001-07:00

Words do not suffice
A matter of sacrifice
Why one falls in love?

Not a subject of wises
The person never rises
Why one falls in love?

Some momentary thrills
And unnecessary frills
Why one falls in love?

Tons of expectations
Outta imaginations
Why one falls in love?

I would rather die
Instead of such daily fry
Never fall in love!

I'm...

2009-06-25T00:58:00.000-07:00

I'm an eternal flame!
The flame which illumines some poor’s hovel
The flame which glows in the lamp of the shrine
The flame which brightens granny’s eyes seeing her son’s son
The flame which lightens the heart of a lover seeing 'her' smile!

I'm a flame of faith the believer keeps in his God
I'm a flame of love the mother has for her child
I'm a flame of audacity the warrior shows for his nation
I'm a flame of liberty the slave wants from his slavery

You can fade my blaze but cannot put me out
I will always burn inside you day in day out!

Pa

2009-06-20T03:34:00.000-07:00

It's Father's Day tomorrow! And here's something for you papa! A small pre-gift from your daughter!

You are the one who’s
ready to catch me before I fall
but instead picks me up,
brushes me off,
and lets me try again.
You are the one who
wants to keep me from making mistakes
but instead lets me find my own way,
even though your heart breaks in silence
when I get hurt.
You are the one who
holds me when I cry,
scolds me when I break the rules,
shines with pride when I succeed,
and has faith in me even when I fail...
Love you, Dad! :)

Walking down the aisle

2009-06-18T23:44:00.000-07:00

Today I am blank. My mind is void. In fact, these days I am not getting concrete ideas to write something wealthy and inspiring. Suddenly, things have turned me inside out. The things I was wishing for are coming my way as surprises but I am not happy. I am not sad though. I am abundant but I am empty. I ask myself: What do you want? But I get only silence in reply. Just walking down the quite aisle in the hope of another end.

Inner soul...

2009-06-07T04:12:00.000-07:00

Life is a perfect blend of joy and sorrow! And not a single human being is distributed with more or less. Deity is so kind to consider everyone at par. Sometimes in the wave of gloom, we lose all our strength and continuously blame and curse the almighty for being so unfair to us. In dissatisfaction, lots of questions run inside and we wander all the time in the search of true answers. Few days back, loaded with some such questions, I read few shlokas from Gita somewhere: ‘Whatever you see is not always the reality. Mind is always greater than the vision. So if you see something, you should ask your mind for its reality. While judging, if mind creates confusion, raise your wisdom which you have earned so far from experiences. It will always assist to justify the situation. And if wisdom also fails to guide you, listen to your inner soul. Soul never misleads.’ So if the circumstances are unfavorable, try to see them from the eye of soul, you will visualize the same picture with some added colors of hopes!

You!

2009-06-02T04:07:00.000-07:00

I know somewhere the sun is shining for me
Spreading the smiling glow
I know somewhere the rain is drizzling for me
To make me happily flow

I know there is another sky, so serene and fair
Spread over my head for the gentle loving care

I know somewhere there is you
To take away all my worries and blue
I know somewhere there is you
Just for me, so pure and true!

Years may come and years may go
There is one thing that I surely know
My life is beautiful because my world includes you!
My existence is worth because my world includes you!

Sooner... the better!

2009-05-28T02:35:00.000-07:00

Illusion is the biggest self entertainer! Now this sentence brings lots of questions along with it. When the person is in illusion, he often tries to see the world in the way he actually wants to see. Sometimes it is good. Rather I would say, for some time, for a limited period, you feel really good. The sprout of delusion grows day by day when you make yourself confident that whatever you are visualizing is true. Everything fits perfect in the frame of your desire. But there's nothing more Illusive than obvious. One day your eyes get open in the dawn of realization! And you get stunned! Sooner you realize, better you can survive.

I think this one is incomplete…I don’t know!

Dawn of gratification!

2009-05-16T02:02:00.000-07:00

…And the sun has again started sparkling brightly. Flowers have started smiling at me spreading the same fragrance. Birds have started playing the same old melodies. Everything around me is so beautiful. The change is sudden and noticeable. It was a long black night and I was eagerly waiting for this dawn! Though I was known to the fact that every dark night is followed by a shining morning, a cloud of doubt was hiding the first ray of sunshine. But it could not hide it longer. And now, in the hot 44° summer, I can feel the cool breeze of happiness and colors of rainbow in the deep east sky! You know...surrounded with sadness, you often ask to yourself…”Why me?” But with li’l patience and faith, you get the answer. Whatever happens, happens for good. That’s why I often say “Life is bliss!” :)

I vs. I

2009-05-07T02:15:00.000-07:00

We all would have surely watched a scene in movies or television soaps where there is a person in some dilemma about something and suddenly she finds herself in between her two shades! They both act as if they have come to help her. They fight in front of the person and make her confused even more. They express their views and try to convince her. One is bad, another is good! One is heart and another is mind! One is nature and another is the demand of time! Background music plays it perfect to make a spectacular picture! Finally during this melodrama, the frustrated person screams and both the shadows disappear! Something similar is happening with me these days. I vs. I…difference is, there is no such dramatic music behind and I just cannot scream!

Those 10 minutes..!

2009-05-03T23:44:00.001-07:00

Waiting for the office bus… Summer Internship of 3 months has really given me the new area to explore. And I am always lucky enough to have such opportunities coming on my way! I was always a person who had the least interest in government and politics. And wow...! I have got an internship in government funded firm which has all the projects of government sector!!! Anyways…that becomes another topic to write. But, I am talking about those 10 minutes when I stand on a corner of the road waiting for my bus. It takes almost 1 hour to reach to the company by bus. I never like to wait but one of my colleagues who also wait at the same stand has suggested me one interesting way to get rid of that boredom of waiting and that suggestion is observation of people. Parents taking their children to school, youngsters going to college, people going to office, aunties coming from temple with “Pooja ki thali”, subjiwalas and lot more. People have different expressions on their faces and it is really funny but interesting to observe them. Some faces are now familiar as I regularly see them going on the same road since past 15 days. Everyone has some plan, some schedule, some aim, some wish in his/her mind for the upcoming day. Many people come to us to ask for an address, to which some we can answer and some we cannot. And meanwhile, the bus arrives and we too proceed with our day, a new day to explore!

Isn't it difficult..?

2009-04-29T02:41:00.000-07:00

This is very unconventional reason of being unhappy! People often get hurt by other’s behavior or words. Sometimes some unwanted circumstances fill the life with sadness and we cannot avoid them! But it is more painful when one tries to act opposite to one’s own nature. As I use to tell my friends that I am the biggest research topic of myself. I like to introspect within myself and analyze my strengths and weaknesses! While doing this, I frequently feel that I am a weird creation of God. But that’s what making me different from others and in fact everyone is weird in his/her own way! Sometimes, during analysis of my weakness, I decide to improve on that part and so continuously examine myself to check whether I am repeating that. And if I observe myself inclined towards that “temporary no entry” zone, then I try to pull myself in the opposite direction of my nature. Now, it’s difficult! Painful! Disturbing! On one hand, I feel happy that I am improvising on that part but actually it really hurts. Walking in the valley of mix emotions, I find myself helpless until I come back to my originality. But ultimately I feel contented that I at least work on my weakness and at one stage or another it helps…definitely!

Let's start...

2008-02-21T02:59:00.000-08:00

Essence of my existence!! Some abstracts of my life. This is my first post and "hopefully" would continue to post regularly!